Trigger Warning
His voice.
Much time has passes, idle memories
Save one picture,
Dressed smartly for the camera,
Me sitting behind him.
i was older.
Jay, a skinny runt kid.
Me, sister boxer in the ring
With the bullies who preyed upon him.
i always won.
Younger then.
Separate ways were taken, following parents.
Wearing crowns of thorns
I became a runaway; he an addict.
6 feet 3, 130 pounds, his body a map of sores.
Cocaine made a hospital his home.
Reborn, he emerged to start a second life.
Smart, he was hired.
Married a woman he would die for.
She took the money
And left for another wallet.
I touched the answering machine button,
My brother.
Strangers for 30 years, his voice,
”This is your brother, Jay.”
On a message,
Low, quiet, dim,
Tears come.
Having let go years ago,
I never let go at all.